Octavia wrote:Welp, more awful news for my sister. Not even three weeks after she lost her baby, her 9-year-old cat had to be rushed to the vet, where they found a huge abdominal mass that was most likely cancer. The vet kept her overnight for observation. Then she got a call at 5:30am on Christmas morning from the vet saying the cat had taken a turn for the worse and recommended immediate euthanasia. My sister didn't want her to suffer any longer, so they put her down without a chance for my sister to say goodbye.
This has been a heart-wrenching month for my family. I'm trying my best to comfort my sister, but it's difficult when I live so far away and it feels like no matter what I say, it's not going to be enough to make things better.
That's awful. For what little it's worth, I hope she feels better.(and you, too.) It's always painful to lose a pet. I remember feeling really broken up after our dog had to be put down, I can't imagine what it's like after something like that. Just try to think happy thoughts, and do what you can to help her think happy thoughts too.
I feel more than a little awkward posting in here because my problems seem pretty trivial compared to some of the other posts in here, but I guess venting is what this thread is for, so whatever.
I've mostly been trying to focus on the bright side of this Christmas (you know, getting things and eating) but I've had a stressful time today regardless of the nice things I've got. I guess I should start off with that I've been running on about 4 hours of sleep today, so bear that in mind. It's not really one thing that made today unpleasant, but a bunch of frustrating family issues that came to a point after building for a while.
There's a lot of tension in my complete, extended family. There've been long, painful fights over the inheritance of a farm after a grandparent's death, relatives insult each others behavior and beliefs behind their backs constantly without anyone ever saying anything out in the open, before the grandparents on one side of my family passed away they both ended up HATING each other and poisoning every conversation they both got into with their resentment, there's a cousin of mine who has ran away from home, and of course there's the creepy guy who nearly everyone suspects(for legitimate reasons) is a pedophile going around making everyone thoroughly uncomfortable after my grandmother had already seriously put-off my immediate family earlier today before anyone else got here by telling us how her family used to call these lumpy black candies "n----r toes".
If we're counting the people who
weren't here, there's also the side of the family with people who obnoxiously foist their religious beliefs on people(like asking people they KNOW aren't religious to say grace) and practically forcing people to do weird, scheduled activities and games with them.
The worst part about all this is that I'm gay, and none of these people know(except for my parents, they do and are completely accepting). I think most of them would take it in stride, and I honestly do not give a fuck about so many of them that I think it wouldn't matter either way, but there's one part of the family I DO care about.
Me and my siblings have always been fairly close to the cousins on one side of our family. One summer, we went and saw them every single week. The problem here has to do with their parents-they are very conservative(are/were Palin supporters) and I really don't know what they would think about my sexuality.
I don't want to be distanced from my cousins because of their parents, and I don't want to make a rift between them and their parents.
So with all this terrible bullshit swirling around in my sleep-deprived mind, I decided to shut myself in the office away from the horrible awkward tension in my family and only come out to eat. I'm antisocial enough that they didn't think of it, but I've been fuming at them and myself for being a coward for hours now.
tl;dr, goddammit family stop making me upset.
edit: My god, this is a lot of words about how my relatives bother me.
by Octavia (?) » Wed Dec 07, 2011 6:51 am
"Sorry, but priority mail isn't a guarantee. Only express mail is. Priority means it will probably get there within two to three days."
<--- This but with a maple leaf.
