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Re: GSM IV

Post by Snowfire (?) » Wed Jun 23, 2021 6:46 pm

Guess who just got progesterone added to their regimen? THIS GIRL! :yay:
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Post by Princess Flufflebutt (?) » Wed Jun 23, 2021 8:08 pm

Yay!
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Post by Snowfire (?) » Thu Jun 24, 2021 5:11 pm

I'M OFFICIALLY TAMMY!!!!! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!

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Post by Skipper (?) » Fri Jun 25, 2021 1:11 am

Wow! Congrats! :yay:

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Re: GSM IV

Post by Madeline (?) » Sat Jul 03, 2021 9:32 am

Approaching my 4th week of HRT :pinkietoot:

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Re: GSM IV

Post by Snowfire (?) » Sat Jul 03, 2021 11:22 am

Madeline wrote:
Sat Jul 03, 2021 9:32 am
Approaching my 4th week of HRT :pinkietoot:
Yay! :yay:
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Post by Princess Flufflebutt (?) » Sat Jul 03, 2021 12:35 pm

Aw yiss! :yay:
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Re: GSM IV

Post by Skipper (?) » Sat Jul 03, 2021 9:43 pm

Madeline wrote:
Sat Jul 03, 2021 9:32 am
Approaching my 4th week of HRT :pinkietoot:
Awesome! You rock! :party:

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Re: GSM IV

Post by Snowfire (?) » Mon Jul 26, 2021 8:48 pm

As of today, the only thing I need to change is my birth certificate. Name, SSN, and driver's license are all done! :yay:
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Post by Snowfire (?) » Sat Sep 04, 2021 3:02 am

Happy one year HRT anniversary to me! :yay:

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Post by Snowfire (?) » Fri Sep 17, 2021 7:49 pm

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IT'S DONE!!! IT'S FINALLY FUCKING DONE!!!

All my legal stuff says Tammy and female now!

I'm so happy. :allears: :yay: :-D
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Post by Octavia (?) » Sun Sep 26, 2021 8:33 pm

Hooray! :fluttercite:
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Re: GSM IV

Post by Snowfire (?) » Wed Oct 06, 2021 12:29 pm

I finally have a urology consultation with Dr. Oates for my bottom surgery! October 14th at 3:30!

(In Boston...) :v:
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Re: GSM IV

Post by Snowfire (?) » Sat Oct 16, 2021 6:05 pm

Okay so I mentioned this in Discord the other day but I'll put it here too.

I had my appointment with Dr. Oates on Thursday. Basically, he's concerned about my Crohn's and the possibility of fistulas forming in the vaginal canal they will make for me. So he said that a normal penile inversion vaginoplasty might not be possible for me, and I might need to settle for what's called a "zero depth" vaginoplasty. That's where I'll have all the vagina parts (clitoris, labia, etc.), but I won't have a vaginal canal, meaning I wouldn't be able to have penetrative intercourse ever. However, he said he's going to talk to my colorectal surgeon to get a better idea of what I went through before they make a decision (I'm also going to have my gastroenterologist work with my colorectal surgeon so that Dr. Oates is getting all the info possible). He said I should know what they decide in about a month.

So best case scenario is I can still have my normal vaginoplasty.
Worst case scenario I'll need to have the zero depth kind.

I've been... upset to say the least the past couple of days. Part of that is due to some of my dysphoria coming from wanting to be pregnant and be a mom. If I had the normal vaginoplasty, I could at least pretend that I could've been a mom. Can't really do that if there's no opening. The other reason is that I have so many things already working against me when it comes to finding relationships (granted I already have Medley who is wonderful). I already have to worry about people not accepting me because I'm trans. Then I need to worry about them not accepting me because I have an ileostomy bag. THEN, if I need to get the zero depth, I'll need to worry about them not accepting me because they would only be able to do oral with me and no vaginal or anal sex ever.

It doesn't help that my brain immediately went to "well I'm a fake girl, might as well have a fake pussy too". And I KNOW that that's not true. But sometimes when I'm upset I can't stop those toxic things from coming out.

I talked with Lobst a little bit (they used to be on the forums I believe). They had zero depth vaginoplasty back in 2017 (the only difference is they did so by choice). They told me some of the details, such as how you can still get wet with zero depth and how there is actually a tiny bit of depth before it stops (they said it's about half an inch deep). Talking with Lobst definitely helped a little bit, but it's just... my entire life I've had to settle for surgeries that I didn't really want. Mostly due to my Crohn's and hidradenitis.

I thought that I could finally, FINALLY, have a surgery that would give me something I wanted. But once again, my body decides to fuck me over, and once again, I'll have to settle for something that, while it will definitely be better than having my dick like I do now, is still not what I wanted.

I know that this sounds petty and I'm really sorry. I just... I wanted something to go right for me for once in my life you know? :fluttersmith:
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Re: GSM IV

Post by BeautifulShy (?) » Sat Oct 16, 2021 6:34 pm

Hopefully things work out and you are able to have the normal vaginoplasty. I know that this can be very trying but hopefully your doctors/specialists can figure something out. Just know that if you are not able to get the vaginoplasty that you want you are still a real woman and science is working towards ways for trans women to get pregnant. This isn't the end of the road if things don't work out.
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