You might be surprised at not regretting it. In my experience, writing out my troubles has always helped put them into perspective, even if there's no particular advice to be given regarding them. I think it's easier to figure out how to deal with what's bothering you when they're words on a screen that you can go back and read rather than something you're feeling at that moment.
As for the rest of your post, this part in particular stood out to me:
I've often felt regret over what I have felt were years of my life wasted between when I dropped out of school in 2010 and when I went back in 2016, and then the three more years it took until I graduated a couple weeks ago. Learning to focus on the future is what's helped me the most. It's like, I know I spent six years basically doing nothing for myself, but there's still a path forward in life no matter what. Society expects that I "should" have graduated years ago and such, but those expectations do not account for a single bit of variance in personal experience.Mr. Big wrote: ↑Thu Dec 26, 2019 3:44 amAnd a lot of this is my fault. Hearing people after people tell me I'm very closed-in emotionally just made me regret my life's choices. Like maybe I would have achieved my life's goals earlier if I made better choices, rather than having to drag through this in your 30s (and maybe beyond).
As long as you have a way of going forward in life, please do your best to focus on that. Your previous actions have affected where you are now, but you can always choose what you'll do next. This isn't always easy; I still have to convince myself that I'm worth it every single time I look at job openings and even think of applying, as an example of an internal problem, or externally you mentioned the client you lost. You do not have to face these alone, though. We're all here to hear your troubles and provide advice (and possibly more tangible aid when we can) through tough times. Knowing that is why I've been glad to see that you have opened up lately.